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Thursday, July 28, 2011

YAY! peepee time :D

we've been potty training since monday.
tuesday she pooped in her trainer, and when i went and dumped it in the toilet and sat her on it, she pooped more in the potty! :D she got a big sticker on her page :D

and today when she woke up from her nap (she doesn't really "take a nap", but sometimes she crashes) she was dry (i had a piddle pad on her bed, just in case).. so i took her to the potty and she peed! so she got a little sticker on her page :D

she likes to tell me she wants to go to the potty like all the time. lol. she's becoming very independant, she'll turn the light on herself, put up the toilet lid, get the stool, sometimes she'll even pull down her own pullup, though she still says "help peese" to pull it up. :)

YAY! this child is super easy so far!
i'm using a couple of the pullups that i made for livy to use when she trained, and about 6 that i made for when i knew zoe would be ready. the two from livy are a tad big on her, so we do get pee down the leg, if she pees too much in those two. *oops.
but for the most part.. YAY!

she'll be done before i know it! *sniff.
very emotional at times.. my last little baby is almost out of diapers (she IS out of diapers during the DAY!). wow.

i feel so lost

i feel so odd today
like i can't function properly

it's because all " my things" are not in my work area
my sewing room is freakin naked
and i can't put anything back yet
and some of the things i want to do in there.. need to be in the commercial
so i can't touch those things either
i'm going stir crazy
i want my room back

shooting the action shots tomorrow morning, then i can reclaim my space
can't wait :D

thank you BDC Productions and Jely Productions for helping me with this project!

finally some decent weather

for the past two days, it's been pretty decent outside..

so Tuesday we went out in the patio, got the kids pool out, sprayed a bunch of water around.. had some good fun. :)

and then yesterday we went to the fair.. good week for it!
saw almost all the animals, walked around, bought a sugar covered pretzel, had ice cream, let the kids on 1 ride (taking jaz and livy to cedar point in a mth)

today is just kinda' off/relaxing.. not doing much. not cause i dont want to.. i want to get into my sewing room and work on stuff.. but it's all "clean" right now.. very "businessy" cause we're shooting a commercial. i'm not allowed to "mess it up" yet :) lol. you guys wanna see a pic of it so "clean" and "empty"?

Friday, July 22, 2011

baby junk

my stomach is squishy

there's prob a good 2 inches of yuck just stuck to my muscle under this floppy skin
why must baby junk haunt me?

even standing up, i can grab a handful on each side.

will it every go away? *sigh

*-'^~ wishful thinking ~*`-+*

you know.. it would prob help if i worked out more than 1 a week.
i've been slacking REAL bad.
i'm just glad i got rid of my bigger pants when i lost the pant size in january. i have nothing bigger to fit into. i HAVE to wear my 8's. and i DONT like muffin top.

i think my main battle with it is the fact that i used to be a cheerleader.
i had strong arms, long lean legs, and a 6 pack abs.

and now.. *sigh

i KNOW it comes with living.. i've been married for a while.. i've got 3 kids.. sometime i should just tell my brain to shut up. lol.

yeah right..
it doesn't help that yesterday my husband told me i looked like i was a couple mths pregnant. i was just wearing a summer dress.

i feel like burning the dress and crying on it. :(
he didn't mean anything by it.. but it hurt
he knows i try

Monday, July 18, 2011

whose in your family tree? what's your lineage?

i have been looking through the old testament this morning.. just flipping through.. and noticing all the lists of people's names, you know, how the start chapters sometimes.. "this man, son of this man, some of this man, who was such and a such"

it made me think of my heritage, and how important my ancestors were.. maybe not to other people, but definitely to me.

my grandma Bakker, for instance, was a FANTASTIC woman of God. she always started her day with a cup of hot tea (a little milk for creamer) and her Bible. she played the piano in her church, he brought up her children to fear the Lord.. all the while being a single mother. her ex-husband (my beloved grandfather) sired 5 children by her, all while being away from home 90% of the time, being married 5 times..

my mom grew up knowing how to do things for herself, learning how to make do with what she had, and all the while being grateful for everything she owned/possesed, because no matter how hard she had it (dirt poor), there was always someone worse off than her. and she always praised God for the blessings she had.. her siblings, her mother, a car, a roof over her head, food on the table, and a church family.

my grandfather Bakker was also a great man. he may have been on the road a lot, but all 5 of his children he loved very much. he settled down with his 5th wife, gave us grandchildren all the love he could, had a WONDERFUL heart.. and taught me that no matter what you do with your life, whether you mess it up or not, God can change anyone. i have no idea if my grandfather was a Christian at the end of his life (i believe so), but i do know he had definitely changed from the way he used to live.

my grandma TenCate (bless her heart) passed away when i was about 8 years old.. but what i will remember always from her is that she was SUCH a warm person, never judged anyone, made the most FANTASTIC sweet potatos at thanksgiving, and always gave of herself. i miss her.

all these and more made an impact on my life. and i'm proud of my lineage and heritage.

my grandma and grandpa Bakker came over from Holland when they were very young (before they even knew each other) and i'm proud to be a little Dutch girl. i have had the privilege of visiting Holland, Germany, Belgium, France and Denmark while I was on a missions trip in 2000.. and I gotta tell you, it's BEAUTIFUL over there.

thank you God for the fantastic people you have put in my life to raise me.
And for showing me that no matter what we do, you can always change a life. :)

Thursday, July 14, 2011

skinny- i think not

why does everyone feel a need to be skinny? can't you just be happy with being healthy?!
i admit, i sometimes wish i could get rid of jiggle.. but that's just leftover baby junk.
i'll stick with my size 8, thank you. if i happen to lose fat or weight, it's be pure coincidence.. i will not push myself to be something i'm not meant to be.
my BMI is 24.3.. i weight 160 lbs.. i'm healthy.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

the perfect night?

zumba and moose tracks ice cream.. do they cancel each other out? :)

also.. i had a fantastic cutting/sewing day :) tomorrow i'll put snaps on these 5 diapers and mail them w/ the rest of the shipping items. and FINALLY sold the Autism os aio. :) YAY!

Psalm 150

"Praise the Lord.
Praise God in his sanctuary; praise him in his might heavens.
Praise him for his acts of power; praise him for his surpassing greatness.
Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet, praise him with the harp and lyre,
praise him with tambourine and dancing,
praise him with the strings and flute,
praise him with the clash of cymbals,
praise him with resounding cymbals.

Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.

this is not a suggestion.

this is a command.

If you are a follower of Christ, you are to be praising the Lord with everything you have, in everything you do.
There are MANY ways to praise.. also put into song by Carmen, on the CD R.I.O.T (righteous invasion of truth).
7 ways to praise- towdah= sacrifice, yadah= lift your hands, barouch= to bow, shabach= the shout, zamar= to play an instrument, halell= rave and boast.

so you see.. no matter your circumstances, no matter your strenth or weakness, you can glorify and praise the Lord.

and my prayer is that, in everything I do, I am praising Him.
doing what He would do
being who He wants me to be.
Because that is what I was created for.

Christian: a person who exemplifies in his or her life the teachings of Christ.

If I am not following His word, what good is my faith?

Monday, July 11, 2011

a workout ;)

my oldest and my youngest found me jogging and stretching in my sewing room, and decided to join me and create a workout :) and this actually felt REALLY good! :) have your kids help you sometime, you might be surprised! :D

youtube w/ me and the kids

my faith

i had to share this today

When I say "I am a Christian," I'm not claiming to be perfect; my flaws are way too visible, but God believes I am worth it. When I say "I am a Christian," I am not holier than thou~I am just a sinner who received God's grace somehow.~Maya Angelou

Saturday, July 9, 2011


it's one of those days where you think everyone else looks awesome, and you look blah.

i need a pick me up.. like.. a homemade chocolate shake. mmmmm

we went out to the lake with some friends last night.. and she looks freakin awesome in a two piece (Zonya from Zonya Healthy International) and even though she said i looked great.. i didn't feel like it.

one of my other friends has the same age children as my two youngest.. and she looks awesome too.

i KNOW i need to remember that I AM HEALTHY FOR ME. and that EVERY body is different.

but for today.. i'll just try and make myself feel good about me.
hug me, Brian. I need it.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

just my view

it's funny.. i get emails about staying healthy and different diets, and "get slim in 6 weeks" stuff.

funny thing is? some i delete, some i actually look at.. why? because i'm human, and i really do want to look my best!

God's view of it?
keep your body healthy, yes, but that doesn't mean you need to go to extremes to find that.
your goal shouldn't be to look a certain way, or be a certain way..

you need to be fit and healthy.. not look like Kim Kardashian.. why? Cause you're not Kim Kardashian.

you have YOUR body, not someone else's.
i find that i am the most happy and healthy, when i just eat the way i like to eat (a daily diet full of veggies, meats, milk, water and fruit) and keep active with my kids. :)

and now that i'm making myself a daily schedule (just what i want to get done during that day), i can throw in little things in between.

it's not about losing a bunch of weight, or wearing a certain dress or pant size. it's about being HEALTHY and making sure you are YOU.

*was i on a soap box? if so, i'm stepping down now ;)