as is life..

well.. even though i should have kept up with Zumba better than this.. i'm glad i've at least done SOMETHING with it.

i'm still pretty proud of the pant size i lost.

i have some of my "muffin" back

which goes to prove the question i had.. if you don't keep up with working out and eating right, it DOES have a reverse effect.

ok

i feel like i'm starting from scratch.. but i'm gonna do it anyway..

measurements..

38" hips

32" waist

21.5" thigh

166 lbs?! wait WHAT?! :(

uhoh.

i have been eating more candy lately..

BAD CAMI

i HAVE to get myself back into activities and healthier.

and there really IS NO excuse.. i just haven't been making good choices, healthy wise, lately.

it doesn't help having a husband who doesn't eat fruits or veggies, and my kids don't like veggies either.

sounds much better!

well i was just informed by a good friend that the diet i chose, and the results i'm hoping for.. are not properly matched. i'm not going to completely scrap the diet.. i'm going to go with the general idea of it.. and ad to it.
i'm getting a headache.. which is not fun.
and i need to change my workout regime.. instead of just doing a 20 minute zumba, or 15 min on the treadmill.. i'll be adding jumping jacks and crunches :D
THANK YOU Kathleen Podgorniak McMahon for your advice!
BANANA time! :D

Day 2

i feel..

not "hungry".. just lacking.

i'm not weak.. just want to eat.

and i want sugar in my coffee! lol

i'm looking forward to wednesday morning.. when i can make scrambled eggs with sausage and hash browns.. and NORMAL coffee :)

i want to eat more.
i want chips and dip, i want sugar in my coffee, i want a banana with cream cheese
"i want a pony, so i can ride it twice and sell it to make glue" lol (from The Grinch)

my 3 day crash diet :)

i'm about to embark on this "mini" journey.

i've been working on toning my mucles, strengthening, stretching.. but the one thing that hasn't happened is losing what's on TOP of it.

I spoke with a friend of mine, Monique Doyle, about this (girl talk, lol) and she recommended this 3 day crash diet to me. :)

i went shopping for the groceries today, and i'm starting tomorrow morning :)

here is the menu, in case you either want to follow along or try it yourself!

she lost 30 lbs over all, and she did it for 4 weeks.

THREE DAY CRASH DIET

Super diet must be followed exactly. Lose 10 lbs in three days!

First Day:

Breakfast- ½ grapefruit

one slice toast

2 tbsp. Peanut butter

coffee or tea

Lunch- ½ cup tuna

one slice toast

coffee or tea

Dinner- two slices any type of meat (about 3oz)

one cup string beans

½ cup beets

one small apple

½ cup vanilla ice cream

Day Two:

Breakfast- one egg

one slice toast

½ banana

coffee or tea

Lunch- ½ cup cottage cheese

five saltine crackers

coffee or tea

Dinner- two hot dogs

1 cup broccoli

½ cup carrots

½ banana

½ cup vanilla ice cream

Third Day:

Breakfast- five saltine crackers

one slice cheddar cheese

one small apple

coffee or tea

Lunch- one hard boiled egg

one slice toast

coffee or tea

Dinner- ½ cup tuna

½ cup beets

one cup cauliflower

½ cantaloupe

1/ cup vanilla ice cream

Diet works on chemical breakdown and is proven. Do Not vary or substitute any of the above foods; salt and pepper may be used; but no other seasonings. Where no quantity is given, there are no restrictions other than common sense. This diet is to be used three days at a time.

In three days you will have lost 10 lbs. After three days of dieting you can eat your normal food, but do not over do it. After four days of normal eating, start back on your three-day diet. You can lose up to 40 lbs in a months time if you stick to this diet. It is a safe diet.

Remember, DO NOT “pick” in between meals.

feeling kind of awkward

you know.. now.. looking at those pics of me in a bikini is way better than i thought i would look.

it's kind of intimidating actually having my body change for the better (especially after having kids).

it's really emotional.. i'm actually in tears right now.. because.. i don't know.

it just feels awkward not being a size 12.

i changed out of these size 12 pants earlier cause they were too baggy on me.

and ironically put on another pair of size 12's.

these fit my legs really well, but the waist is just not comfortable.. it's not "baggy", just loose. and i have to wear a belt. even WITH a belt, i keep having to pull them up.

but the thing is, realistically, i can't afford to loose the weight i want to.. cause i can't afford new clothes.

sad.. i know.

i would feel really awkward putting on a pair of size 8/10 pants.. and having them fit perfect.

the odd thing about that is.. back in february, when i lost a pant size (down to an 8/10 from a 12), i was so excited about it.

now.. it's almost like.. well.. i'm not dreading it..

it just feels.. awkward.. and i think the reality of it is just now hitting me.. that my goal to be more active and eat better.. IS actually effecting my body the way I was HOPING it would. I guess I just never thought it would really happen.. because i've been let down by these kind of things before.

well.. Cami.. get used to it.. looks like you're on the road to "hottie with a body"ness!

it may take a while for me emotionally to really grab onto this concept.. but my reality now is.. i'm getting thinner. IM GETTING THINNER!

never wore a bikini before.. maybe there's a reason HAHA

my take on bikini's?

you might as well wear panties and a bra to the beach. ;)

i got a free bikini the other day from a "Free garage sale" just because i've never worn one, and figured.. eh.. it's free.. why not, just to see.

BAHAHA

yeah right ;)

from the front.. not half bad

from the back.. i look pretty decent! (i like my butt, lol)

from the side?!

THIS is why people who have a gut shouldn't wear them.

it doesn't look good. lol

honestly.. it's not HORRIBLE horrible.. but it's not what I want to show the world.

(even posting it on here really isn't that bad.. not a ton of people read this blog anyway, lol)

i'm going to stick with my tankini :) the tank top covers it all :)

good thing we can laugh at ourselves :) and if nothing else, i can use it for a bra and panties! :D

my goodness.. what is wrong with me?

• why can't our bodies just naturally take care of itself?
• • why can't i just eat like adam and eve did.. strictly fruits and veggies.. all organic
    
    
    • it's actually a tad upsetting sometimes.. cause i don't know what a tomato is calorie wise, a banana, 1/2 cup shredded mozzarella.. ya know?
    • i can eat a whole yellow squash, fried in oil, with a chili dog on the side.. and then not eat again for 6 hours.
    • and i don't have a clue how much sugar/fat, etc i just ate
      
      
      • ya know?
      • it's aggravating
      • and that's only when i'm super hungry though
    
    
    ok.. this rarely happens.. but i actually feel like crying
    • i dont cry about myself very often
    • lol
    • *sigh
      • i'm generally a very happy, healthy person
      • i've never been a vain person.. so this feels very weird to me
      • and it kinda' feels wrong to feel this way
      • because i know i'm supposed to accept myself the way i am
      • and i do.. for the most part
      • man.. babies really do a lot to ya.. physically
      • and emotionally

well.. it's good to know i'm on the right track "diet" wise. i'm not ON a diet.. just changing the way I eat, and TRYING to be more physically active. now i just have to figure out how to balance out my calories, so i'm not under eating OR overeating. 
my goodness.. it was never this way in high school ;) lol. i'm definitely not a child anymore.